Tuesday, September 2, 2008

Stressed, Frazzled, and All of the Above

I got a run in this weekend, which met my 4 run goal for the Virtual Run Club but definetly didn't quite meet my training schedule. I was hoping to get at least a 15 miler in to try to get back on schedule. My physical therapist thought otherwise. I told him about the way my knee reacted post run (hurt going down stairs) and he told me that I needed to keep my runs around 6-8 for now so that I'm not going backwards on my healing. So on Sunday I headed out with the intention to really just get a run done. I was in the hilly region of St.Michael and I knew that I couldn't expect to get a super long run in. I was feeling good though and finally found a road with minimal hills. My I-Pod wasn't charged so I was running without the ability to know how far I'd gone. Andy and I calculated it with the car later and found that I'd almost ran 7 miles! Not the 15 I was supposed to do but at least my knee is still in tact and not in too much pain.

So where does all the stress come from? Well...I'm not at 15! And my marathon is really creeping up here. It is already September. I hate to say it, but I think I should have put this marathon off a little longer. But I can't back out now. So...I'm left with nothing but worry until this knee heals.

And school is starting this weekend so that means I will have less time. And on top of that...I've discovered that somehow I've spent way too much money lately. And I really would like to figure out a way of getting more income--meaning maybe another job. But that would leave me with literally NO time. Blah. Plus Amanda and I are looking to move. So Rachel is very stressed. If only I COULD run 15 miles to vent all this stuff!

Anyways...that's my life right now. Physical therapist tomm. Hopefully he can fix me.


Anonymous said...

It's funny how runners are. While almost every other 'normal' person out there would feel "Stressed, Frazzled, and All of the Above" about having to run 15 miles, you are feeling like that because you want to run 15 miles but can't!!

Now, don't let those negative feelings and worries get to you. Your knee will be healed and you will be more than ready for your marathon, just be careful and follow the doc indications so you get healed ASAP!

EmLit said...

Keep your chin up, Rachel! I know what it's like to feel the way you do, but just know that everything will work out the way it should. Even if you do not perform the way you wanted in this marathon, there are so many more on the horizon!

Alien is right--you should keep doing what you need to do in order to get healthy as soon as possible, even if it does mean that you are running less than you would like. Everything will work out in the end and we are all here to support you!

chris said...

I know how you are feeling, Rachel. That pull to run can be almost unbeatable. But, taking it slow is the best best. Like Em said, there are so many more marathons to come. Good luck!

Alissa said...

If it makes you feel better, my marathon is on the same day as yours and I've only gotten up to 14 miles at this point. And I feel the same sense of urgency about it too. I hope the physical therapist helps. Keep us updated!

*jen* said...

We're in the same boat - well sort of. I'm not injured but am definitely stressing out about life and my marathon coming up way too soon. YOU CAN DO IT! You've done such a great job with your running and I know you will continue to do so. Just get better and try not to stress too much.